Family, Curlers, and dudes

My family is crazy, completely crazy. Tonight, as on all Mondays I forced my family to pray together. However, all did not go as planned. My dad had on some kind of teeth straightening, mouth gard thing and when he spoke the word boot sounded like boob. As he prayed a pious prayer, my mother and I got a fit of the giggles. My dad just sounded soooo funny!! In the middle of his prayer, while he was asking God to bless my mom's family, we burst out laughing hysterically. My little sister then started to cry and screamed "What about how I feel?'' This is my family. You can love them, hate them, or just laugh.

I'm trying curlers for the first time. This is all YOUR fault. You know who YOU are.

Dudes are so dumb.

Love the Lord with all your heart, all your mind, and all your soul, then you can't go wrong.

Stupid Girls

The disease is growing, it's epidemic
I'm scared that there ain't a cure
The world believes it, and I'm going crazy
I cannot take any more
I'm so glad that I'll never fit in
That will never be me
Outcasts and girls with ambition
That's what I wanna see

There is nothing like a good shop to cheer a girl up.

Look before you leap

1. Stop
2. Wait
3. Pray
4. think
5. ask advice
6. Pray some more

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition present your requests to God.

Mix'in it up

Yoda speaks in reverse arrangement.

Walmart? think again

Thanks for your support and amor amiga!

Don't worry, I'll call you tomorrow....If I haven't already talk to you.

I'm soooo confused!!!

Jesus where are you!?!???

When life gets too hard to stand

Father carry me.

Jesus loves you and, praise God, you are blessed. You are blessed. You are blessed.

Lets talk about love love love love love

Love, real, true love is impossible. We as flawed human beings are simply not capable of real love. In 1 Corinthians 13:8 the bible says, "Love never fails," and we all fail every single day. But, we can strive for that true and perfect love of christ. What is true love?

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Today, at work I tried to really love people. I tried to be patient and kind. I tried not to be rude or self-seeking or easily angered. Though I wasn't perfect, I did make $106 in tips. I think that people just need a little love and it is the duty of every christian to try to love others. But first, you must learn to love God. And then, you must learn to love yourself, because how can you love your neighbor as yourself, if you really don't love yourself at all.

love god.love self.love others

Just not a great day

When you spend prom night studying for AP tests, you can know that you have reached some kind of Ultimate Loser Nerd point. It is extremely depressing. And then the yankees lose. And your mom won't let you sleep on a saturday. Just not a great day. But I have to remeber I have wonderful friends, a great church, and a loving God. I don't really need much else. Right?

Mariano Mariano porque?

What sets Christians apart from other people? We don't get any special privileges. We get hurt, sick, murdered, raped, bombed. We still sin, make mistakes, hurt others. So what really set us apart? I think it is the love and forgiveness and eternal hope found in Jesus. We can live for a love that goes beyond this life. We have worth besides our achievements and grades and AP tests and college. We can have hope that this life is not all. There is more, so much more. And so we ask ourselves, are we living in terms of this temporary world or are we living in terms of eternity.

To PHHS christian club: You all are such an encouragement to me. It is so wonderful to meet with other brothers and sisters so we can just talk and pray and encourage each other. Love in Christ.

Can YOU be hotter than Alex Rodriguez?

I need a God hug.

Think twice thats my only advice

My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation;he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.

I'm so tired of people who hurt others without even thinking.

Inspite of it all

I LOVE YOU JESUS!!!!!

'Cause I'm a fire
I'm a flood
I'm a revolution
I am a war
Already won
I'm a revolution

When the world is at war
When the grace is gone
When the hungry lay dead
While the rich live on

I will rise above
I will live for love
I will answer to the call
For the bond between
For a depth unseen
For my God forsake it all

It's so so good to be wrapped in God's free grace.

Note:
Sorry I missed church this week. I love all of you soooo much and I will call you.

Was I wrong?

Thought that everything was perfect
Isn't that how it's supposed to be?
Thought you thought that I was worth it
Now I think a little differently
All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love

I'm so sorry

The Word NO

There are to types of people who have a problem with the word no. First there is group A, the girls that can't say it. Girls out there, you know who you are. Your no some how gets tranlated into, "I don't know", "I'm not sure", or the classic "maybe". None of these words mean no. Many guys take your "maybe" as "yes, but I want you to try a little harder" or "I like you but I'm shy". If you say maybe when you mean no, its unfair to you and the guy. Lets all practice together now, no nooooo NO!

Then there is the other group, the guys who don't know how to hear no. Girls may say it a hundred times in both subtle and obvious ways, but the guy still doesn't get it. First I started with "Sorry but I'm busy". Then I tried "No I can't go" without any excuse. Then I tried "I have a boyfriend", and when that didn't work I tried "I don't want to be in a relationship". Finally, I had to resort to "I'm a lesbian" but it didn't work either. I'm currently at a loss. When does no mean no?

Brothers and Sisters

Its an incredible feeling when think you are walking along a dark road all alone but then you realize you have brothers and sisters all around just waiting to help you up when you fall down. I realize that I can't keep all my troubles to myself, I need friends to correct me or encourage me and help me to stay inside of God's will. I need all my christian buddies.

And the eye cannot say to the hand, "I have no need of you." 1 Corinthians 12:21

Faith is not easily maintained in personal isolation.
-John Piper

Thanks for being there

extravaganza of the senses

It is always cool to see a nice person that you never thought you were going to see again. If that makes any sense. Yesterday, I saw Emily at Johnny Rockets. Very cool. Then I gave her free chili and a chocolate, peanut butter, banana, Oreo, vanilla, cherry, sundae. She asked for something extravagant. I think it is the first time Johnny Rockets food has ever been called "An extravaganza of the senses."

You cannot ever value your heart highly enough. Jesus died for it; don’t jack it up.

-Jon Yip

Drop your silver in my tambourine
Help a poor man fill a pretty dream
Give me pennies, I'll take anything
Now listen while I play
My green tambourine

Watch the jingle jangle start to shine
Reflections of the music that is mine
When you toss a coin you'll hear it sing
Now listen while I play
My green tambourine

Drop a dime before I walk away
Any song you want I'll gladly play
Money feeds my music machine
Now listen while I play
My green tambourine

This song is my future.

hmmmm.... a very personal reflection

How important are feelings? Really? Are they so important that we should base our attitudes, actions, and lives on feelings? I think not. However, sometimes I just can't help my feelings. Sometimes I just feel sad, or angry or depressed and I can't help it. Is it wrong to feel some things? According to John Piper the answer is yes. To feel anger at God is morally wrong. This really suprised me but then I read this passage.

It is never right to be angry with God. He is always and only good, no matter how strange and painful his ways with us. Anger toward God signifies that he is bad or weak or cruel or foolish. No of those is true and all of them dishonor Him. Therefore it is never right to be angry with God.

Though this passage was very revealing, it also disturbed me. I have been angry at God many times. I have blamed him for the things that went wrong in my life. This was because of a lack of trust. I did not trust that God had a plan to prosper me and not to harm me, a plan to give me a hope and a future. In the past year, my life has fallen apart. All the things that I thought I knew turned out to be lies. As I near my 17th birthday, I wonder if this year will be any better. How could it possibly get any worse? Yet, as my circumstances become increasingly frightening, my inner joy grows. I know this joy is not coming from me and therefore I have hope. I think I can do it. With God at my side I know I can.

Give all the love you have and you will find you have more love than ever before.

Joy

Today being Easter, i spent sometime reflecting and philosophising about life. This is what I came up with. I think God wants us to live joy filled lives. Jesus came and died, gave up his life so that we could be free. Jesus's death gives our lives value and worth. Therefore, I think since Jesus gave his life for ours, we are obligated to live a life of joy for the glory of God. Because Jesus died for us, we have no right to waste our lives by being unhappy, discontented, or "emo". Our lives are no longer our own.. Therefore, go out and live with joy. Every bite of chocolate, every laugh with a friend, every ray of sun shine on your face, should be enjoyed to the glory of God.

Live and love life.

I'm gonna lock my heart

I'm gonna lock my heart
And throw away the key
I'm wise to all those tricks you played on me
I'm gonna turn my back on love
Gonna snob the moon above
Seal all my windows up with tin
So the love bug can't get in
Park my romance right alone the curb
Hang a sign upon my heart"Please don't disturb"
And if I never fall in love again
That's soon enough for me
I'm gonna lock my heart
And throw the key

If only we could really lock our hearts away.

From now on I have only one true love. I'm beginning my affair with my Savior.

As I play my green tambourine

Oda a La Tristeza

Tristeza, escarabajo
de siete patas rotas,
huevo de telarana,
rata descalabrada,
esqueleto de perra:
Aqui no entras.
No pasas
Andante
Vuelve
al sur con tu paraguas,
vuelve
al norte con tus dientes de cuulebera
La triteza no puede
entrar por estas puertas.
Popr las venmtanas
entra el aire del mundo,
las rojas nuevas.
cortare tu mortaja
yuenterrare, tristeza, tus huesos roedores
bajo la primavera de un manzano
No puedes
Aqui no entras.

Ode to Sadness

Sadness, scarab
with seven crippled feet, spider web egg,
scramble brian rat,
bitches skeleton;
Don't come in. Go away
Go back
south with you umbrella
go back
north with your serpents teeth
No sadness may cross this thresholod
Through these windows
comes the breath of the world,
fresh red roses
No.
No entry.
I will sew your shroud,
sadness and bury your riodent bones
beaneath the spring time of an apple tree.

Pablo Neruda

My bad hair

My bad hair day has turned into a bad hair week, which turned into a bad hair month, which now seems like a bad hair life. I hate my hair. When it is curly I look like a crazy hippee from the 70's and when it is straight I look like a cross dressing skater boy.

YUCK!!!

Sorry to any guy who had to read this.

Today a cashier in savemart to told me: Modest is hottest.

Are there actually guys out there who think that? I was so suprised.

Ay Ay Ay

How guys are so stupid

1. They are generally evil and mean.
2. They think they like based on the way she wears her hair one day of the week (from melissa).
3. They cry when you are only trying to get them to do their hw (also from melissa).

Life lesson #1

If you let one guy whack your butt they are all just gonna line up.

Andy why did you have to break my heart?

My Dorkiness

I think I am the biggest, most dorky, Mcdork, dorker, dork in the whole world.

Reasons why i am a dork:
I trip
I drop things
I stutter
I wear dorky clothes
I say dorky things
I post stupid blogs

Mr. L: What is your source of money Jesi?
Me: My sugar daddy Mr. L, my sugar daddy

Cocaine Blues

Drugs are not the answer. This song is an example of why.

Early one mornin' while makin' the rounds
I took a shot of cocaine and I shot my woman down
I went right home and I went to bed
I stuck that lovin' .44 beneath my head

Got up next mornin' and I grabbed that gun
Took a shot of cocaine and away I run
Made a good run but I ran too slow
They overtook me down in Juarez, Mexico

Late in the hot joints takin' the pills
In walked the sheriff from Jericho Hill
He said Willy Lee your name is not Jack Brown
You're the dirty heck that shot your woman down

Said yes, oh yes my name is Willy Lee
If you've got the warrant just a-read it to me
Shot her down because she made me sore
I thought I was her daddy but she had five more

When I was arrested I was dressed in black
They put me on a train and they took me back
Had no friend for to go my bail
They slapped my dried up carcass in that county jail

Early next mornin' bout a half past nine I spied the sheriff coming down the line
Ah, and he coughed as he cleared his throat
He said come on you dirty heck into that district court

Into the courtroom my trial began
Where I was handled by twelve honest men
Just before the jury started out I saw the little judge commence to look about

In about five minutes in walked the man
Holding the verdict in his right hand
The verdict read murder in the first degree I hollered Lawdy Lawdy, have a mercy on me

The judge he smiled as he picked up his pen 99 years in the Folsom pen
99 years underneath that ground
I can't forget the day I shot that bad bitch down

Come on you've gotta listen unto me
Lay off that whiskey and let that cocaine be

Christlove to all <3

Self-Love

Self-love comes from a deep trust in God. Self-love does not come from the love of others but rather, it comes from the belief that the King of the Universe as looked upon you and called you beloved. The king has called you his child. You are a Priestess of the most high temple of God. Believe and learn to love yourself. Believe me I know what its like to hate yourself. But I'm trying to love myself so I can love God and love others. I try to get up each morning and deny my flesh by nailing it to the cross. And every day I fail. Every single day I find a way to submit to sin. In spite of this I battle on towards becoming more like Jesus Christ because this is what he asks. It's hard to accept but Jesus died for your sins. They no longer belong to you. He has taken them away. He loves you. Jesus loves you. Jesus loves you.

I love you all so much I can't stand to see you hate yourselves.

Sorry if this preachy sermon annoyed you. Its just cause I care about you.

Thank God for friends

Thanks to all the friends who have been there for me. Through all my emoness and annoyingness and stupidness and jealousness and selfishness and pmsingness and pain. I thank God for all of you each and every day.

If you don't care don't feel obligated to pretend