Tuesday, April 10, 2007

hmmmm.... a very personal reflection

How important are feelings? Really? Are they so important that we should base our attitudes, actions, and lives on feelings? I think not. However, sometimes I just can't help my feelings. Sometimes I just feel sad, or angry or depressed and I can't help it. Is it wrong to feel some things? According to John Piper the answer is yes. To feel anger at God is morally wrong. This really suprised me but then I read this passage.

It is never right to be angry with God. He is always and only good, no matter how strange and painful his ways with us. Anger toward God signifies that he is bad or weak or cruel or foolish. No of those is true and all of them dishonor Him. Therefore it is never right to be angry with God.

Though this passage was very revealing, it also disturbed me. I have been angry at God many times. I have blamed him for the things that went wrong in my life. This was because of a lack of trust. I did not trust that God had a plan to prosper me and not to harm me, a plan to give me a hope and a future. In the past year, my life has fallen apart. All the things that I thought I knew turned out to be lies. As I near my 17th birthday, I wonder if this year will be any better. How could it possibly get any worse? Yet, as my circumstances become increasingly frightening, my inner joy grows. I know this joy is not coming from me and therefore I have hope. I think I can do it. With God at my side I know I can.

Give all the love you have and you will find you have more love than ever before.

2 comments:

Elena said...

Love love. Thanks for this, Jes. Interesting to ponder about.

Victoria said...

ahhh. so this is what you were talking about. Like I said your post's comment, John Piper is a wise man.