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Ouch

2008-03-19T22:24:00.000-07:00

Well I've been pretty miserable lately, atleast I've been feeling sorry for myself. But my mom told me some stuff today to put things in perspective. A family friend just contracted Multiple Sclerocis. Its a disease that will put her in a wheel chair within ten years. She is thirty and has two kids. There is no cure. Then the husband of my mom's co-worker blew his head of last night. She has four kids. The youngest is two. It just reminds me, things can always get worse.

A little less conversation

2007-09-30T22:47:00.000-07:00

A little less conversation, a little more action please
All this aggravation aint satisfactioning me
A little more bite and a little less bark
A little less fight and a little more spark
Close your mouth and open up your heart and baby satisfy me
Satisfy me baby

Dedicated to a special friend

Ain't that a Bitch?

2007-09-19T20:53:00.000-07:00

Freak out! I'm alone now
I feel just like I'm losin´ my mind
In a daze
In the throes of emotion
You see God in the Devil´s eyes
Then you fall so far from grace
You wouldn´t know a kiss
If it was on your face
You can tell it to the jury
But you ain´t got no case
Then you feel so out of place
Lickin´ up the arsenic
From the same old lace
You know the stuff is poison
But you gotta have a taste

Sorry

2007-08-22T20:45:00.000-07:00

I havent updated in forever. I know all of you have missed reading my blog. But now i'm back. I have had a great summer and i hope you all have too.

Here are some pictures that I took while I was in so-cal

And guess what?

My Grandpa is on Youtube!!!! or atleast his music is.

Check it out: http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=2607040445548846049&q=dan+fox+composer&total=10&start=0&num=10&so=0&type=search&plindex=0

Cultural Education

2007-07-19T20:25:00.000-07:00

Summer is a time for cultural education. Listening to music, reading books and watching movies. I have watched quite a few good movies this summer.

So far the recomendation list is:

Shindler's List
Death of a Salesman
Spartacus
Little Miss Sunshine
Goodbye Lenin
The English Patient
American Beauty

So if you are bored, go pick up any one of these movies and I promise you wont be disapointed.

When did I forget?

2007-07-17T21:28:00.000-07:00

That I was made to love You
I was made to find You
I was made just for You
Made to adore You
I was made to love and be loved by You

Yes i stole this picture from melissa

2007-07-07T16:13:00.000-07:00

Its funny how much you can fit in your stomach sometimes.

WARNING: For female eyes only

2007-07-02T22:46:00.000-07:00

How many women out there have the problem of uneven breasts? Well according to an article on WEBMD it everyone. And there isn't anything you can do about it. Except get implants which is kind of gross. So to all the ladies of the world, YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

OR as my friend at summer school put it:

I named them Mary kate and Ashley. Because one is anorexic.

Ling Leung conference was great.

Love Jesus

The world is coming to an end

2007-06-26T23:11:00.000-07:00

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Maybe things are just funnier late at night.

Hot greeting to all

2007-06-20T00:20:00.000-07:00

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Grace = unfair?

2007-06-12T22:26:00.000-07:00

While reading Phillip Yancey's What's So Amazing About Grace? I have learned a lot about grace. God = Grace. But what is Grace? I think the best example is from one parable Jesus told his disciples. The owner of a wheat field advertised that he needed people to harvest his field. Some people came at the beginning of the day, some people came at lunch time, and some people came an hour before closing. At the end of the day, instead of paying his workers by the hour, he gave them all $100. The people who came at the beginning of the day received the same pay as those who arrived at the end of the day. What was Jesus' point with this story? I think that he wanted to tell people that grace cannot be earned. Grace is not based on merit. Grace is a free gift and should be taken as such. We can look at the thief who hung next to Jesus on the cross. He was a christian for an hour? 30 mins? Who knows, and yet Jesus said to him "Today you will be with me in Paradise." Obviously if this thief can receive God's grace, so can we. Many Christians spend their lives trying to earn grace because they just can't understand its free. Its FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grace is the most incredible gift that you will ever receive. You can't earn it, replace it, or give it back. I think Christians need to learn to bask in the freeness of God's grace.

Christlove to all

CAUTION

2007-06-11T16:49:00.001-07:00

I should have told you I would be difficult
I should have shown you the scars on my soul
I should have told you I wanted you to take care of me
Without allowing you any of my control

People should come with warning labels.

Shut your mouth

2007-06-06T19:57:00.000-07:00

Sometimes its just better to be quiet.

ME ENCANTA LA PLAYA (I love the beach)

2007-05-28T21:59:00.000-07:00

Today I went to the beach to "study"

Here are some pictures

Gym

2007-05-21T20:27:00.000-07:00

Today I went to the gym. It was so great. I think I'm in love. Seriously, who needs a boy friend when you have a treadmill? Actually I didn't use the treadnill cause there was a line. But I did do lots of cardio, swimming, and even weight lifting. And now I'm sore. It hurts.

I have no fear of drowning

It's the breathing that's taking all this work

Do you know what I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"?

What I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"

Thank you

2007-05-13T22:55:00.001-07:00

Thank you to all my friends for loving me! I love you all too.

I'm not emo

2007-05-12T10:13:00.000-07:00

I just lost my phone. If you are one of the 9 people who have called me in the last two days, I'm very sorry. I lost my phone on thursday night. My mom found it in her bible study bag. How it got there, I don't know. Thanks to all the friends who have been putting up with me lately. I know I'm wierd.

Christlove to all.

I haven't posted in a long time

2007-05-10T22:13:00.000-07:00

I have been being a hermit lately. Sometimes I just prefer my own company to anyone else's (with a few exceptions). Its been fun with just me, myself and I. Honestly I find myself so funny. Its great. And no one but me gets the underlying sarcasm in alot of the stuff I say. O well.

Quotes from Mom

A guy who cheats is like someone who eats a delicous turkey dinner and then goes to McDonalds...cause he is still hungry.

You must play to must play to win but you also must win to play.

Is anybody getting this???

I got a Mcmuffin for just 99 cents today. Must have been a special.

Who scored my speedo? Maybe grandma did. (yes I know)

Can you hear me? Anybody? Anybody?

Meld

2007-05-02T19:54:00.000-07:00

Jesi+melissa=jelissa.....or messie

M: If i was milk i would be 2% because whole milk is too white and non fat tastes bad.

What kind of milk would YOU be?

Star testing is driving me crazy!!!!

Emasculating

2007-05-01T22:12:00.000-07:00

I think there are too many posts dedicated to Jon Liao today. I also think that he has been completely emasculated by the picture on mesa's blog. Not to mention that guy who wanted his number. What was that about???

ANYWAYS.....

My life is boring and I have nothing interesting to say.

Blessings to Wa Wa on his Birthday

Family, Curlers, and dudes

2007-04-30T22:08:00.000-07:00

My family is crazy, completely crazy. Tonight, as on all Mondays I forced my family to pray together. However, all did not go as planned. My dad had on some kind of teeth straightening, mouth gard thing and when he spoke the word boot sounded like boob. As he prayed a pious prayer, my mother and I got a fit of the giggles. My dad just sounded soooo funny!! In the middle of his prayer, while he was asking God to bless my mom's family, we burst out laughing hysterically. My little sister then started to cry and screamed "What about how I feel?'' This is my family. You can love them, hate them, or just laugh.

I'm trying curlers for the first time. This is all YOUR fault. You know who YOU are.

Dudes are so dumb.

Love the Lord with all your heart, all your mind, and all your soul, then you can't go wrong.

Stupid Girls

2007-04-28T11:48:00.000-07:00

The disease is growing, it's epidemic
I'm scared that there ain't a cure
The world believes it, and I'm going crazy
I cannot take any more
I'm so glad that I'll never fit in
That will never be me
Outcasts and girls with ambition
That's what I wanna see

There is nothing like a good shop to cheer a girl up.

Look before you leap

2007-04-26T23:34:00.000-07:00

Stop
Wait
Pray
think
ask advice
Pray some more

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition present your requests to God.

Mix'in it up

2007-04-25T20:34:00.000-07:00

Yoda speaks in reverse arrangement.

Walmart? think again

Thanks for your support and amor amiga!

Don't worry, I'll call you tomorrow....If I haven't already talk to you.

I'm soooo confused!!!

Jesus where are you!?!???

When life gets too hard to stand

2007-04-23T22:05:00.000-07:00

Father carry me.

Jesus loves you and, praise God, you are blessed. You are blessed. You are blessed.

Lets talk about love love love love love

2007-04-22T23:15:00.000-07:00

Love, real, true love is impossible. We as flawed human beings are simply not capable of real love. In 1 Corinthians 13:8 the bible says, "Love never fails," and we all fail every single day. But, we can strive for that true and perfect love of christ. What is true love?

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Today, at work I tried to really love people. I tried to be patient and kind. I tried not to be rude or self-seeking or easily angered. Though I wasn't perfect, I did make $106 in tips. I think that people just need a little love and it is the duty of every christian to try to love others. But first, you must learn to love God. And then, you must learn to love yourself, because how can you love your neighbor as yourself, if you really don't love yourself at all.

love god.love self.love others

Just not a great day

2007-04-22T00:30:00.000-07:00

When you spend prom night studying for AP tests, you can know that you have reached some kind of Ultimate Loser Nerd point. It is extremely depressing. And then the yankees lose. And your mom won't let you sleep on a saturday. Just not a great day. But I have to remeber I have wonderful friends, a great church, and a loving God. I don't really need much else. Right?

Mariano Mariano porque?

2007-04-20T23:40:00.000-07:00

What sets Christians apart from other people? We don't get any special privileges. We get hurt, sick, murdered, raped, bombed. We still sin, make mistakes, hurt others. So what really set us apart? I think it is the love and forgiveness and eternal hope found in Jesus. We can live for a love that goes beyond this life. We have worth besides our achievements and grades and AP tests and college. We can have hope that this life is not all. There is more, so much more. And so we ask ourselves, are we living in terms of this temporary world or are we living in terms of eternity.

To PHHS christian club: You all are such an encouragement to me. It is so wonderful to meet with other brothers and sisters so we can just talk and pray and encourage each other. Love in Christ.

Can YOU be hotter than Alex Rodriguez?

2007-04-19T22:23:00.000-07:00

I need a God hug.

Think twice thats my only advice

2007-04-18T20:56:00.000-07:00

My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation;he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.

I'm so tired of people who hurt others without even thinking.

Inspite of it all

2007-04-16T18:17:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU JESUS!!!!!

'Cause I'm a fire
I'm a flood
I'm a revolution
I am a war
Already won
I'm a revolution

When the world is at war
When the grace is gone
When the hungry lay dead
While the rich live on

I will rise above
I will live for love
I will answer to the call
For the bond between
For a depth unseen
For my God forsake it all

It's so so good to be wrapped in God's free grace.

Note:
Sorry I missed church this week. I love all of you soooo much and I will call you.

Was I wrong?

2007-04-16T18:09:00.000-07:00

Thought that everything was perfect
Isn't that how it's supposed to be?
Thought you thought that I was worth it
Now I think a little differently
All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love

I'm so sorry

The Word NO

2007-04-13T10:16:00.000-07:00

There are to types of people who have a problem with the word no. First there is group A, the girls that can't say it. Girls out there, you know who you are. Your no some how gets tranlated into, "I don't know", "I'm not sure", or the classic "maybe". None of these words mean no. Many guys take your "maybe" as "yes, but I want you to try a little harder" or "I like you but I'm shy". If you say maybe when you mean no, its unfair to you and the guy. Lets all practice together now, no nooooo NO!

Then there is the other group, the guys who don't know how to hear no. Girls may say it a hundred times in both subtle and obvious ways, but the guy still doesn't get it. First I started with "Sorry but I'm busy". Then I tried "No I can't go" without any excuse. Then I tried "I have a boyfriend", and when that didn't work I tried "I don't want to be in a relationship". Finally, I had to resort to "I'm a lesbian" but it didn't work either. I'm currently at a loss. When does no mean no?

Brothers and Sisters

2007-04-12T10:18:00.000-07:00

Its an incredible feeling when think you are walking along a dark road all alone but then you realize you have brothers and sisters all around just waiting to help you up when you fall down. I realize that I can't keep all my troubles to myself, I need friends to correct me or encourage me and help me to stay inside of God's will. I need all my christian buddies.

And the eye cannot say to the hand, "I have no need of you." 1 Corinthians 12:21

Faith is not easily maintained in personal isolation.
-John Piper

Thanks for being there

extravaganza of the senses

2007-04-11T11:03:00.000-07:00

It is always cool to see a nice person that you never thought you were going to see again. If that makes any sense. Yesterday, I saw Emily at Johnny Rockets. Very cool. Then I gave her free chili and a chocolate, peanut butter, banana, Oreo, vanilla, cherry, sundae. She asked for something extravagant. I think it is the first time Johnny Rockets food has ever been called "An extravaganza of the senses."

You cannot ever value your heart highly enough. Jesus died for it; don’t jack it up.

-Jon Yip

Drop your silver in my tambourine
Help a poor man fill a pretty dream
Give me pennies, I'll take anything
Now listen while I play
My green tambourine

Watch the jingle jangle start to shine
Reflections of the music that is mine
When you toss a coin you'll hear it sing
Now listen while I play
My green tambourine

Drop a dime before I walk away
Any song you want I'll gladly play
Money feeds my music machine
Now listen while I play
My green tambourine

This song is my future.

hmmmm.... a very personal reflection

2007-04-10T00:02:00.000-07:00

How important are feelings? Really? Are they so important that we should base our attitudes, actions, and lives on feelings? I think not. However, sometimes I just can't help my feelings. Sometimes I just feel sad, or angry or depressed and I can't help it. Is it wrong to feel some things? According to John Piper the answer is yes. To feel anger at God is morally wrong. This really suprised me but then I read this passage.

It is never right to be angry with God. He is always and only good, no matter how strange and painful his ways with us. Anger toward God signifies that he is bad or weak or cruel or foolish. No of those is true and all of them dishonor Him. Therefore it is never right to be angry with God.

Though this passage was very revealing, it also disturbed me. I have been angry at God many times. I have blamed him for the things that went wrong in my life. This was because of a lack of trust. I did not trust that God had a plan to prosper me and not to harm me, a plan to give me a hope and a future. In the past year, my life has fallen apart. All the things that I thought I knew turned out to be lies. As I near my 17th birthday, I wonder if this year will be any better. How could it possibly get any worse? Yet, as my circumstances become increasingly frightening, my inner joy grows. I know this joy is not coming from me and therefore I have hope. I think I can do it. With God at my side I know I can.

Give all the love you have and you will find you have more love than ever before.

Joy

2007-04-08T21:33:00.000-07:00

Today being Easter, i spent sometime reflecting and philosophising about life. This is what I came up with. I think God wants us to live joy filled lives. Jesus came and died, gave up his life so that we could be free. Jesus's death gives our lives value and worth. Therefore, I think since Jesus gave his life for ours, we are obligated to live a life of joy for the glory of God. Because Jesus died for us, we have no right to waste our lives by being unhappy, discontented, or "emo". Our lives are no longer our own.. Therefore, go out and live with joy. Every bite of chocolate, every laugh with a friend, every ray of sun shine on your face, should be enjoyed to the glory of God.

Live and love life.

I'm gonna lock my heart

2007-04-07T12:50:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna lock my heart
And throw away the key
I'm wise to all those tricks you played on me
I'm gonna turn my back on love
Gonna snob the moon above
Seal all my windows up with tin
So the love bug can't get in
Park my romance right alone the curb
Hang a sign upon my heart"Please don't disturb"
And if I never fall in love again
That's soon enough for me
I'm gonna lock my heart
And throw the key

If only we could really lock our hearts away.

From now on I have only one true love. I'm beginning my affair with my Savior.

As I play my green tambourine

2007-04-06T22:38:00.000-07:00

Oda a La Tristeza

Tristeza, escarabajo
de siete patas rotas,
huevo de telarana,
rata descalabrada,
esqueleto de perra:
Aqui no entras.
No pasas
Andante
Vuelve
al sur con tu paraguas,
vuelve
al norte con tus dientes de cuulebera
La triteza no puede
entrar por estas puertas.
Popr las venmtanas
entra el aire del mundo,
las rojas nuevas.
cortare tu mortaja
yuenterrare, tristeza, tus huesos roedores
bajo la primavera de un manzano
No puedes
Aqui no entras.

Ode to Sadness

Sadness, scarab
with seven crippled feet, spider web egg,
scramble brian rat,
bitches skeleton;
Don't come in. Go away
Go back
south with you umbrella
go back
north with your serpents teeth
No sadness may cross this thresholod
Through these windows
comes the breath of the world,
fresh red roses
No.
No entry.
I will sew your shroud,
sadness and bury your riodent bones
beaneath the spring time of an apple tree.

Pablo Neruda

My bad hair

2007-04-05T22:58:00.000-07:00

My bad hair day has turned into a bad hair week, which turned into a bad hair month, which now seems like a bad hair life. I hate my hair. When it is curly I look like a crazy hippee from the 70's and when it is straight I look like a cross dressing skater boy.

YUCK!!!

Sorry to any guy who had to read this.

Today a cashier in savemart to told me: Modest is hottest.

Are there actually guys out there who think that? I was so suprised.

Ay Ay Ay

2007-04-05T21:34:00.000-07:00

How guys are so stupid

They are generally evil and mean.
They think they like based on the way she wears her hair one day of the week (from melissa).
They cry when you are only trying to get them to do their hw (also from melissa).

Life lesson #1

If you let one guy whack your butt they are all just gonna line up.

Andy why did you have to break my heart?

My Dorkiness

2007-04-04T17:10:00.000-07:00

I think I am the biggest, most dorky, Mcdork, dorker, dork in the whole world.

Reasons why i am a dork:
I trip
I drop things
I stutter
I wear dorky clothes
I say dorky things
I post stupid blogs

Mr. L: What is your source of money Jesi?
Me: My sugar daddy Mr. L, my sugar daddy

Cocaine Blues

2007-04-03T21:26:00.001-07:00

Drugs are not the answer. This song is an example of why.

Early one mornin' while makin' the rounds
I took a shot of cocaine and I shot my woman down
I went right home and I went to bed
I stuck that lovin' .44 beneath my head

Got up next mornin' and I grabbed that gun
Took a shot of cocaine and away I run
Made a good run but I ran too slow
They overtook me down in Juarez, Mexico

Late in the hot joints takin' the pills
In walked the sheriff from Jericho Hill
He said Willy Lee your name is not Jack Brown
You're the dirty heck that shot your woman down

Said yes, oh yes my name is Willy Lee
If you've got the warrant just a-read it to me
Shot her down because she made me sore
I thought I was her daddy but she had five more

When I was arrested I was dressed in black
They put me on a train and they took me back
Had no friend for to go my bail
They slapped my dried up carcass in that county jail

Early next mornin' bout a half past nine I spied the sheriff coming down the line
Ah, and he coughed as he cleared his throat
He said come on you dirty heck into that district court

Into the courtroom my trial began
Where I was handled by twelve honest men
Just before the jury started out I saw the little judge commence to look about

In about five minutes in walked the man
Holding the verdict in his right hand
The verdict read murder in the first degree I hollered Lawdy Lawdy, have a mercy on me

The judge he smiled as he picked up his pen 99 years in the Folsom pen
99 years underneath that ground
I can't forget the day I shot that bad bitch down

Come on you've gotta listen unto me
Lay off that whiskey and let that cocaine be

Christlove to all <3

Self-Love

2007-04-02T22:58:00.000-07:00

Self-love comes from a deep trust in God. Self-love does not come from the love of others but rather, it comes from the belief that the King of the Universe as looked upon you and called you beloved. The king has called you his child. You are a Priestess of the most high temple of God. Believe and learn to love yourself. Believe me I know what its like to hate yourself. But I'm trying to love myself so I can love God and love others. I try to get up each morning and deny my flesh by nailing it to the cross. And every day I fail. Every single day I find a way to submit to sin. In spite of this I battle on towards becoming more like Jesus Christ because this is what he asks. It's hard to accept but Jesus died for your sins. They no longer belong to you. He has taken them away. He loves you. Jesus loves you. Jesus loves you.

I love you all so much I can't stand to see you hate yourselves.

Sorry if this preachy sermon annoyed you. Its just cause I care about you.

Thank God for friends

2007-04-01T22:17:00.000-07:00

Thanks to all the friends who have been there for me. Through all my emoness and annoyingness and stupidness and jealousness and selfishness and pmsingness and pain. I thank God for all of you each and every day.

If you don't care don't feel obligated to pretend

Praise You in this Storm

2007-03-31T16:46:00.000-07:00

I was sure by now, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls I barely hear
You whisper through the rain, "I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the
God who gives and takes away.

And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone
how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God
who gives and takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the maker of heaven and earth

Frustration

2007-03-27T21:15:00.000-07:00

Why is it, that every time I finally get good with God, I mess up again. Sometimes I even repeat the same mistakes. Why can't I learn? Because of my stubborness, pride, and simple stupidity. Actually I think calling myself stupid is a little bit of a cop-out. It isn't that I'm too stupid to hear the voice of God, I'm just to prideful to follow it.

Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts
Hebrews 4:7

My fear of commitment

2007-03-26T17:38:00.000-07:00

I want to be completely commited to God. And yet, I am still afraid. I still doubt and worry. I know that God has the best possible plan for me but I am still tempted. I want to go my own way and do what I think is best even though I know God's way is better.

A physical world creates a spirtual haze

Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak Mark 14:38

O Father, help us to be childlike

Help us not to resent our need for you

Help us to trust that Your mighty powef for us is in Jesus Christ

So make us lionhearted in the cause of love

In Christ's name we pray Amen.

John Piper

I guess we just gotta take it day by day.

A pointless and possibly disturbing discussion

2007-03-25T23:09:00.000-07:00

A few days ago friend of mine told me that God hated sex. I disagreed with her but I started to wonder, what does God think about sex? I looked up some scriptures but all I found was a long list of people (and animals) not to have sex with. I'm feeling a little confused.

Don't have sex with:
any close relative
your mother
your father's wife
your sister, either your father's daughter or your mother's daughter
your son's daughter or your daughter's daughter
your father's sister
your mother's sister
your father's brother's wife
your daughter-in-law
your brother's wife
both a woman and her daughter
your wife's sister
your neighbor's wife
an animal

That is one long list

I'm still confused, what does God think about sex

Anyways on to more normal subjects. Ummm.... College people are back at church so thats cool. Queena and Christina we got to hang out. You too Yi-cha!!!

Christlove to all

Peace

2007-03-24T23:09:00.000-07:00

Give me peace in the midst of this storm.

Pain

2007-03-22T22:10:00.000-07:00

Pain is God's hammer. He use it to pound us and mold us and shape us into who he wants us to become.

Crying

2007-03-21T20:36:00.000-07:00

I'm as blue as any one can be
I feel like a weepin' willow tree
I'm in a cryin' mood
Cryin' Mood

Now you say you're lonely
You cry the long night through
Well, you can cry me a river
Cry me a river I cried a river over you
Now you say you're sorry
For being so untrue
Well, you can cry me a river
Cry me a river I cried a river over you
Cry me a river

I'm crying my heart out for you
What can I do
I'm losing myself over you
Over and over again
I'm crying my heart out for you
What can I do
I'm losing myself over you
Over and over again
Crying my heart out for you

You saw me crying in the chapel
The tears I shed were tears of joy
I am happy with the Lord
I searched and I searched but I couldn't find
No way on earth to find peace of mind
Now I'm happy just to sing and praise the Lord
You'll search and you'll search but you'll never find
No way on earth to find peace of mind
Take your troubles to the chapel
Get down on your knees and pray
Then your burdens will be lighter
And you'll surely find a way
Crying in the Chapel

I'm tired of getting hurt by the people I love the most

Today In spanish (other names may be used in order to protect the identity of certain persons)

C: That girl is really pissing me off
Me: who?
C: Katie, she's so ugly and annoying
Me: Well no one could possibly be as ugly as you
C: What?!?!
Me: You heard me

Don't mess with my friends

She's not there

2007-03-20T22:01:00.000-07:00

Well no one told me about her, what could I do
Well no one told me about her, though they all knew
But it's too late to say you're sorry
How would I know, why should I care
Please don't bother tryin' to find her
She's not there
Well let me tell you 'bout the way she looked
The way she'd act and the colour of her hair
Her voice was soft and cool
Her eyes were clear and bright
But she's not there

Beauty does not come from outward appearances or even inner qualities, but rather the beauty of Christ within you.

QUEver (you just have to love the french) oui oui

2007-03-19T21:41:00.000-07:00

The war of of the tan

MK: Who is darker?
J: Me
MK: You are just hairier
J: Ouch

(if you don't know what the tan war is just ask me or melissa for an explanation)

Various other conversations I had today

(in tutoring after melissa kept eating food off the floor)
U chen: I know how to make melissa eat a chip. Just throw it on the floor.
MK: I'm not a dog
J: ha ha ha

U chen: Who is that Lakisha person that comments on your blog.
J: Just a friend of mine. He has identity issues.

jonnybrowneyes (10:30:21 PM): mine has the elegance of a tan k
jonnybrowneyes (10:30:41 PM): but it's like green tea
jonnybrowneyes (10:30:44 PM): it's always perky

Today this guy in tutoring ate off the floor just cause I asked him too. The crazy things that boys will do for you. It's amazing.

Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light
Mathew 11:29- 30

Right now my life is so full of problems, I should be crushed under the wieght. Yet I feel more free than I have felt in a long time.

I <3 music!!!

2007-03-18T21:12:00.000-07:00

If music be the food of love, play on.
Twelth Night

Where would I be with out my music? Misty Edwards, Merchant Band, Casting Crowns, Toby Mac, Dc Talk, John Mayer, Robin Thicke, Ella Fitzgerald, and NOW Latino. This is what I've been listening to lately. Suggestions for other good music would be appreciated.

But godliness with contentment is great gain.
1 Tim 6:6

Set me free
Lift your hands, I hold the key.

Rocky Road (yummy!)

2007-03-17T23:03:00.000-07:00

Last night I saw Becca Chang in her play at Kings. It was masterful theatric work and an absolute pleasure to watch. It was also very fun to see Becca in a pink dress and curls. I hope you liked the flowers. I can understand if you didn't really care for the cake or out of date St. Patrick's Day balloons.

Did anyone actually wear green today?

Did God ever say a Chriatian life was easy? He said that we would have to crucify our flesh in order to follow him. If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. Luke 9:23. Yet the bible also says, you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light Mathew 11:29-30. I think the trick is, we do not bear our own burdens. Christ carries them for us. Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens. Psalm 68:1

I did listen to you 3 this time.

Modesty?

2007-03-15T19:51:00.000-07:00

Today I told a good friend of mine that I found her father to be a good looking man. It did not go over very well. Maybe I should think before I speak.

What is immodest? When is a shirt too low? A skirt too short? Pants too tight? Can someone please explain this to me. Why didn't God leave a dress code?

Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.
1 Peter 5:8

Watch Out

Stop. Whats that? Everybody!

2007-03-14T22:22:00.000-07:00

Many storms are on the way
Better sharpen your faith
Blessed is she who seeks my face

Do you know where your going to?
Do you like the things that life is showing you?
Where are you going to?

I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. Jeremiah 29:11 The Message

To the 3 people who I actually respect their advice:
Why don't I listen to you???

like like like..... valley girl

Do you prefer coconut or cinnamon?

Just when you think life can't get any worse..... it does

2007-03-13T20:39:00.000-07:00

Lord be with me through my valley of the shadow of death.

An intelligent discussion on various topics of interest (or not.....)

2007-03-12T23:17:00.000-07:00

My face:
It is as red as a boiled lobster. or maybe a crab..... which ever one is redder. Why didn't I listen to my mommy.

Shaving:
How come s have to shave their legs and guys do not? Hair on guys legs is just as yuck. I think guys should shave their legs too. and their armpits....yuck

The bread movement:
It sounds really like a really good idea. Vicky I hope you don't disqualify me because of you know what.

Why I am such an idiot:
I have no idea. actually...never mind

God:
The purpose of my life must be to glorify God. nothing else matters.

Because your steadfast love is better than life, I will praise you.
Psalm 63:2

God don't let me make the same mistake again

This has been the stupidest, most random blog ever. Sorry for wasting your time. ha ha ha :)

I'm a wannabe stalker

2007-03-11T16:01:00.000-07:00

Yea Battle Cry!!! Actually right now I'm not feeling all that excited. My feelings are better described as

Dang i have to pick up the dog poo
Dang I have to finish all that hw
Dang I have to go to school tomorrow

But I did get some good things out of Battle Cry. I really liked Ron Luce. Defintely not the kind of speaker where you think sermon = nap time. His sermon about being a God stalker really touched me. I want to know God intmately. I want to be different. I want to stand out. I want "Christ lover" to be written on my forehead. hmmmm.....

This is my cry to you Lord:
God, you are my God; Earnestly I seek you; I soul thrists for you; My flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water. Psalm 63:1

Kimchee is loved. Kimchee is beautiful. Kimchee is found worthy of love in the sight of her father. Kimchee is a princess, daughter of a king. Take some of your own advice for you are fearfully and wonderfully made.

Lakisha and Clarissa say, "I'm feeling nippy"

DOWN WITH THE PANTS (the story of my fight against the evil regime)

2007-03-09T14:21:00.000-08:00

Pants have taken over the world. Look around your school, your work place, even your home. What do you see every where on everyone? PANTS!!!! They are taking over our world! I say we fight against this evil piece of clothing!!!

I haven't worn pants all week. (that isn't what it sounds like)

Sun: Dress
Mon: Capris
Tues: Shorts
Wed: Dress
Thurs: Shorts
Fri: Skirt

I encourage all s out there to fight! Wear something besides pants.

Acts 16
25About midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the other prisoners were listening to them. 26Suddenly there was such a violent earthquake that the foundations of the prison were shaken. At once all the prison doors flew open, and everybody's chains came loose.

If we praise God in spite of our stressful, painful and seemingly impossible circumstances, something miraculous might happen.

Sorry for the emo blog yesterday. I was just feeling very down and sad and self-hating. I do wish I could be a better friend to all of you. Sorry for all the times I've messed up and failed. Thanks for sticking with me. And thanks to whoever was praying for me last night. I felt your prayers.

2007-03-08T22:43:00.000-08:00

I wish I could write something encouraging. I wish I could be a better person. I wish I could be an example. I wish I could be a better daughter I wish I could be a better friend. I wish I could be good enough.

Forgive me

To those that I love:

May the Lord bless you and keep you; may the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; may the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace. Num 6: 24-26

Thank you for the blessings you give Jesus

I'm sorry

A peanut butter cookie day

2007-03-07T19:48:00.000-08:00

The thing about peanut butter cookies is no one really likes them. Its just peanut butter. But if there is a box of peanut butter cookies sitting around, someone will probably eat them. They aren't good or bad. Peanut butter cookies are just there.

If we learn from our mistakes does it make the mistakes ok?

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39

Thank you for your promise

Only eat Indian food made by Indians

2007-03-06T18:14:00.000-08:00

I just had a delicous dinner of Indian food. However, my stomach doesn't seem to like it.

Conversation between me and vicky last night

J: No one loves me
V: I do
J: I have no friends
V: What about me?
J: I'm so ugly
V: You're gorgeous my dear
J: Life sucks
V: I hope this doesn't sound too mean my dear but I think you need to get over yourself
J: HA HA HA

So true. Thanks for being there Vic!

The idols of the nations are silver and gold, the work of human hands. They have mouths, but they do not speak: they have eyes, but they do not see: they have ears but they do not hear, nor is there any breath in their mouths. Those who make them become like them, so do all who trust in them. Pslam 135
You become like the man-made things that you trust: mute, blind, deaf. When humans forsake their maker and love other things more, they become like the things they love-- small, insignificant, weightless, inconsepuential and God diminishing.

Think and tremble

Inspired by John Piper's Pirced by the Word

Cookies

2007-03-05T21:08:00.000-08:00

Cookies are soooo cool. They can be crunchy or chewy or crumbly or soft or hard. They can be minty or carmely or nutty or rasiny or friuty or peanut buttery. But the best cookies are CHOCOLATE! Chocolate is the best thing ever invented. God defintely had something to do with the invention of chocolate.

The yankees are 6-0 for their pre-season games

Why you should read your bible
For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, to the division of soul and spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning thoughts and intentions of the heart.
Heb 4:12