Praise You in this Storm

I was sure by now, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls I barely hear
You whisper through the rain, "I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the
God who gives and takes away.

And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone
how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God
who gives and takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the maker of heaven and earth

Frustration

Why is it, that every time I finally get good with God, I mess up again. Sometimes I even repeat the same mistakes. Why can't I learn? Because of my stubborness, pride, and simple stupidity. Actually I think calling myself stupid is a little bit of a cop-out. It isn't that I'm too stupid to hear the voice of God, I'm just to prideful to follow it.

Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts
Hebrews 4:7

My fear of commitment

I want to be completely commited to God. And yet, I am still afraid. I still doubt and worry. I know that God has the best possible plan for me but I am still tempted. I want to go my own way and do what I think is best even though I know God's way is better.

A physical world creates a spirtual haze

Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak Mark 14:38

O Father, help us to be childlike

Help us not to resent our need for you

Help us to trust that Your mighty powef for us is in Jesus Christ

So make us lionhearted in the cause of love

In Christ's name we pray Amen.

John Piper

I guess we just gotta take it day by day.

A pointless and possibly disturbing discussion

A few days ago friend of mine told me that God hated sex. I disagreed with her but I started to wonder, what does God think about sex? I looked up some scriptures but all I found was a long list of people (and animals) not to have sex with. I'm feeling a little confused.

Don't have sex with:
any close relative
your mother
your father's wife
your sister, either your father's daughter or your mother's daughter
your son's daughter or your daughter's daughter
your father's sister
your mother's sister
your father's brother's wife
your daughter-in-law
your brother's wife
both a woman and her daughter
your wife's sister
your neighbor's wife
an animal

That is one long list

I'm still confused, what does God think about sex

Anyways on to more normal subjects. Ummm.... College people are back at church so thats cool. Queena and Christina we got to hang out. You too Yi-cha!!!

Christlove to all

Peace

Give me peace in the midst of this storm.

Pain

Pain is God's hammer. He use it to pound us and mold us and shape us into who he wants us to become.

Crying

I'm as blue as any one can be
I feel like a weepin' willow tree
I'm in a cryin' mood
Cryin' Mood

Now you say you're lonely
You cry the long night through
Well, you can cry me a river
Cry me a river I cried a river over you
Now you say you're sorry
For being so untrue
Well, you can cry me a river
Cry me a river I cried a river over you
Cry me a river

I'm crying my heart out for you
What can I do
I'm losing myself over you
Over and over again
I'm crying my heart out for you
What can I do
I'm losing myself over you
Over and over again
Crying my heart out for you

You saw me crying in the chapel
The tears I shed were tears of joy
I am happy with the Lord
I searched and I searched but I couldn't find
No way on earth to find peace of mind
Now I'm happy just to sing and praise the Lord
You'll search and you'll search but you'll never find
No way on earth to find peace of mind
Take your troubles to the chapel
Get down on your knees and pray
Then your burdens will be lighter
And you'll surely find a way
Crying in the Chapel

I'm tired of getting hurt by the people I love the most

Today In spanish (other names may be used in order to protect the identity of certain persons)

C: That girl is really pissing me off
Me: who?
C: Katie, she's so ugly and annoying
Me: Well no one could possibly be as ugly as you
C: What?!?!
Me: You heard me

Don't mess with my friends

She's not there

Well no one told me about her, what could I do
Well no one told me about her, though they all knew
But it's too late to say you're sorry
How would I know, why should I care
Please don't bother tryin' to find her
She's not there
Well let me tell you 'bout the way she looked
The way she'd act and the colour of her hair
Her voice was soft and cool
Her eyes were clear and bright
But she's not there

Beauty does not come from outward appearances or even inner qualities, but rather the beauty of Christ within you.

QUEver (you just have to love the french) oui oui

The war of of the tan

MK: Who is darker?
J: Me
MK: You are just hairier
J: Ouch

(if you don't know what the tan war is just ask me or melissa for an explanation)

Various other conversations I had today

(in tutoring after melissa kept eating food off the floor)
U chen: I know how to make melissa eat a chip. Just throw it on the floor.
MK: I'm not a dog
J: ha ha ha

U chen: Who is that Lakisha person that comments on your blog.
J: Just a friend of mine. He has identity issues.

jonnybrowneyes (10:30:21 PM): mine has the elegance of a tan k
jonnybrowneyes (10:30:41 PM): but it's like green tea
jonnybrowneyes (10:30:44 PM): it's always perky


Today this guy in tutoring ate off the floor just cause I asked him too. The crazy things that boys will do for you. It's amazing.

Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light
Mathew 11:29- 30

Right now my life is so full of problems, I should be crushed under the wieght. Yet I feel more free than I have felt in a long time.

I <3 music!!!

If music be the food of love, play on.
Twelth Night

Where would I be with out my music? Misty Edwards, Merchant Band, Casting Crowns, Toby Mac, Dc Talk, John Mayer, Robin Thicke, Ella Fitzgerald, and NOW Latino. This is what I've been listening to lately. Suggestions for other good music would be appreciated.

But godliness with contentment is great gain.
1 Tim 6:6

Set me free
Lift your hands, I hold the key.

Rocky Road (yummy!)

Last night I saw Becca Chang in her play at Kings. It was masterful theatric work and an absolute pleasure to watch. It was also very fun to see Becca in a pink dress and curls. I hope you liked the flowers. I can understand if you didn't really care for the cake or out of date St. Patrick's Day balloons.

Did anyone actually wear green today?

Did God ever say a Chriatian life was easy? He said that we would have to crucify our flesh in order to follow him. If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. Luke 9:23. Yet the bible also says, you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light Mathew 11:29-30. I think the trick is, we do not bear our own burdens. Christ carries them for us. Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens. Psalm 68:1

I did listen to you 3 this time.

Modesty?

Today I told a good friend of mine that I found her father to be a good looking man. It did not go over very well. Maybe I should think before I speak.

What is immodest? When is a shirt too low? A skirt too short? Pants too tight? Can someone please explain this to me. Why didn't God leave a dress code?

Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.
1 Peter 5:8

Watch Out

Stop. Whats that? Everybody!

Many storms are on the way
Better sharpen your faith
Blessed is she who seeks my face

Do you know where your going to?
Do you like the things that life is showing you?
Where are you going to?

I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. Jeremiah 29:11 The Message

To the 3 people who I actually respect their advice:
Why don't I listen to you???

like like like..... valley girl

Do you prefer coconut or cinnamon?

Just when you think life can't get any worse..... it does

Lord be with me through my valley of the shadow of death.

An intelligent discussion on various topics of interest (or not.....)

My face:
It is as red as a boiled lobster. or maybe a crab..... which ever one is redder. Why didn't I listen to my mommy.

Shaving:
How come s have to shave their legs and guys do not? Hair on guys legs is just as yuck. I think guys should shave their legs too. and their armpits....yuck

The bread movement:
It sounds really like a really good idea. Vicky I hope you don't disqualify me because of you know what.

Why I am such an idiot:
I have no idea. actually...never mind

God:
The purpose of my life must be to glorify God. nothing else matters.

Because your steadfast love is better than life, I will praise you.
Psalm 63:2

God don't let me make the same mistake again

This has been the stupidest, most random blog ever. Sorry for wasting your time. ha ha ha :)

I'm a wannabe stalker

Yea Battle Cry!!! Actually right now I'm not feeling all that excited. My feelings are better described as

Dang i have to pick up the dog poo
Dang I have to finish all that hw
Dang I have to go to school tomorrow

But I did get some good things out of Battle Cry. I really liked Ron Luce. Defintely not the kind of speaker where you think sermon = nap time. His sermon about being a God stalker really touched me. I want to know God intmately. I want to be different. I want to stand out. I want "Christ lover" to be written on my forehead. hmmmm.....

This is my cry to you Lord:
God, you are my God; Earnestly I seek you; I soul thrists for you; My flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water. Psalm 63:1

Kimchee is loved. Kimchee is beautiful. Kimchee is found worthy of love in the sight of her father. Kimchee is a princess, daughter of a king. Take some of your own advice for you are fearfully and wonderfully made.

Lakisha and Clarissa say, "I'm feeling nippy"

DOWN WITH THE PANTS (the story of my fight against the evil regime)

Pants have taken over the world. Look around your school, your work place, even your home. What do you see every where on everyone? PANTS!!!! They are taking over our world! I say we fight against this evil piece of clothing!!!

I haven't worn pants all week. (that isn't what it sounds like)

Sun: Dress
Mon: Capris
Tues: Shorts
Wed: Dress
Thurs: Shorts
Fri: Skirt

I encourage all s out there to fight! Wear something besides pants.

Acts 16
25About midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the other prisoners were listening to them. 26Suddenly there was such a violent earthquake that the foundations of the prison were shaken. At once all the prison doors flew open, and everybody's chains came loose.

If we praise God in spite of our stressful, painful and seemingly impossible circumstances, something miraculous might happen.

Sorry for the emo blog yesterday. I was just feeling very down and sad and self-hating. I do wish I could be a better friend to all of you. Sorry for all the times I've messed up and failed. Thanks for sticking with me. And thanks to whoever was praying for me last night. I felt your prayers.

I wish I could write something encouraging. I wish I could be a better person. I wish I could be an example. I wish I could be a better daughter I wish I could be a better friend. I wish I could be good enough.

Forgive me

To those that I love:

May the Lord bless you and keep you; may the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; may the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace. Num 6: 24-26

Thank you for the blessings you give Jesus

I'm sorry

A peanut butter cookie day

The thing about peanut butter cookies is no one really likes them. Its just peanut butter. But if there is a box of peanut butter cookies sitting around, someone will probably eat them. They aren't good or bad. Peanut butter cookies are just there.

If we learn from our mistakes does it make the mistakes ok?

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39

Thank you for your promise

Only eat Indian food made by Indians

I just had a delicous dinner of Indian food. However, my stomach doesn't seem to like it.

Conversation between me and vicky last night

J: No one loves me
V: I do
J: I have no friends
V: What about me?
J: I'm so ugly
V: You're gorgeous my dear
J: Life sucks
V: I hope this doesn't sound too mean my dear but I think you need to get over yourself
J: HA HA HA

So true. Thanks for being there Vic!

The idols of the nations are silver and gold, the work of human hands. They have mouths, but they do not speak: they have eyes, but they do not see: they have ears but they do not hear, nor is there any breath in their mouths. Those who make them become like them, so do all who trust in them. Pslam 135
You become like the man-made things that you trust: mute, blind, deaf. When humans forsake their maker and love other things more, they become like the things they love-- small, insignificant, weightless, inconsepuential and God diminishing.

Think and tremble

Inspired by John Piper's Pirced by the Word

Cookies

Cookies are soooo cool. They can be crunchy or chewy or crumbly or soft or hard. They can be minty or carmely or nutty or rasiny or friuty or peanut buttery. But the best cookies are CHOCOLATE! Chocolate is the best thing ever invented. God defintely had something to do with the invention of chocolate.

The yankees are 6-0 for their pre-season games

Why you should read your bible
For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, to the division of soul and spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning thoughts and intentions of the heart.
Heb 4:12